Mary and I the dehumanization and brutality of the pornography industry part #9

Mary, (not her alter ego the infamous pornography entertainer) would approve of this blog, I’m certain. To expose the brutality and inhumane treatment she is suffering, to deter others from this horrible fate,  to scream until she could scream no more….. to release the unimaginable horror she has endured. Yet she can’t, so I will.

You see, Mary would often send me anti-rape and abuse links to websites and videos. Often her Facebook and twitter posts would contain sexual/domestic abuse and anti-rape content.  At first I was puzzled and could not understand the message. Yet as we began dating, as we became so very intimate, Mary revealed the rapes, beatings, kidnappings, and being drugged. Her loneliness, sadness and pain grabbed me by the heart. I lived it too. As a youth I was beaten severely by my mother, living in a feminist, lesbian household  My father left my mother as soon as I was old enough to walk. She hated men. Mother saw my father when she looked my way and any excuse for a beating became no excuse at all. The telephone cords hurt the most.

I was a runaway on the streets of  L.A.

Hollywood

Living  with Punk Rockers, misfits and other social outcasts, squatting in abandoned homes, apartments and various makeshift dwellings, I was accosted/propositioned often.  The thoughts ran through my teenage mind, other kids I knew did it… I never  arrived at that final destination.

I began to understand, her muted cry for help, justice and liberty. The dichotomy, this internal dialog within herself, destroying her mind and soul, as she struggles with the wrenching reality of living life as a mere object, more  akin to a trick pony than a woman. Tormented beyond sanity, abusing herself, being abused, abusing others and unable to find internal happiness, Mary replaced dignity and self-esteem with mere material items. She herself having no more self-worth than the very things she was ultimately unable to even afford.

to be continued…http://gerilewis.wordpress.com/2012/02/25/mary-and-i-the-dehumanization-and-brutality-of-the-pornography-industry-part-10/

The continuing story of Mary, the dehumanization and brutality of the pornography industry part #5

I love her completely. Without reservation and unconditionally. So begins my road to complete and utter heartbreak. The moon and stars shine brightly and the traffic whooshes by on the I-15 as I urinate in the brisk desert night, diverting my attention.  Zipping my fly, I catch my penis in the zipper cursing under my breath at the sudden burst of pain. I have left my night job in  Los Angeles without hesitation or after thought.  Mary hysterically crying, informs me that an internet  webcam (customer) pervert has called her a whore,  is  stalking her and will kill her tonight. She also sobs, “The doctor I was dating before you is trying to murder me. He put a Barbie Doll with black hair and a knife in it under my bed when I was out. “ I try to calm Mary however no words will sooth or alleviate her concern. Wondering, “Is she delusional?” But also knowing that her infamy has attracted stalkers in the past, I’m in a state of despair as well. I only wish to save Mary from this life of  horror. This is my mission. I remember the soldiers Code of Conduct (article 1) from  my military service, second stanza  I am prepared to give my life in their defense. I am also reminded of John 15:13   Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.
to be continued…http://gerilewis.wordpress.com/2011/12/01/thethe-continuing-story-of-mary-and-i-the-dehumanization-and-brutality-of-the-pornography-industry-part-6/

 

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