The continuing tale of “Mary”, the brutality and dehuminization of pornography part #3
[Maintaining a relationship with Mary became very difficult emotionally for me. Although being a First Responder and having taken basic psychology courses, my understanding of the extent of Mary’s illness is rudimentary. The brutality and abuse Mary has and continues to endure (through internet pornographic acts and prostitution) resulted in her often wanting to inflict pain on me. Often Mary would hit and scratch me for no apparent reason and constantly accost me verbally, saying, “You want it. Men pay thousands of dollars for this.” I realized this was her method of expressing the deep emotional trauma she would often deny on a surface level by declaring, “I’m not ashamed of anything I’ve done.” By abusing and manipulating me, Mary struck back at the men that have controlled and manipulated her as well as her own self loathing.
… to be continued