Prayer and Faith
I had been struggling with the repentence.It seemed the urge to return to past behavior and habits was to great for me to bear.
I had to stop what I was doing and pray on the matter.
I felt exactly as the passage in Romans 7-So the trouble is not with the law, for it is spiritual and good. The trouble is with me, for I am all too human, a slave to sin. 15 I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate. 16 But if I know that what I am doing is wrong, this shows that I agree that the law is good. 17 So I am not the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.
18 And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[d] I want to do what is right, but I can’t. 19 I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. 20 But if I do what I don’t want to do, I am not really the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.
21 I have discovered this principle of life—that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. 22 I love God’s law with all my heart. 23 But there is another power[e] within me that is at war with my mind. This power makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. 24 Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death? 25 Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord. So you see how it is: In my mind I really want to obey God’s law, but because of my sinful nature I am a slave to sin.
I decided to go for a walk and stop in a second-hand store.The shop was very unkempt and in disorder. The proprietor is a fellow in his 80s and he seemed to have trouble with keeping up with his store. I noticed Christian spiritual guide on a table. I flipped the page open and it just happened to be on the topic of repentance.I began reading rapidly and to surmise the chapter in a few words, The author stated that true repentance cannot be accomplished without faith and true faith cannot be achieved without repenting from my sinful nature.
Well the old-timer and I got to talking, He noticed I was reading the book and he asked if I am saved. I replied, “Yes but I’m having some thoughts that are against God’s wishes for me.” being a wise and cheerful fellow he assured me God know’s what is in my heart as well as my mind and God loves me.Coincidence? You know what is said about coincidence? Coincidence is God’s way of staying anonymous!